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“You're nothing to me.”
“I don't want you”

Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something,
I'm giving up on you

Words: 321
Tag: Someone close to Lyn please

This crumbly feeling in her heart, what was it? It felt so heavy, and painful. Little tears formed in the corners of her eyes, and she didn't care. She had tried, to not cry. Tried for Josh, for Remus, for Felicity. The laundry she was folding fell back into it's pile, part of it bunched up into tiny wrinkled places where her fingers dug into them. Ed had called her. Messaged her with the rainbow to tell her how useless she was. How much he didn't want her. She thought about going to see them, to be on Ed's side since Nick sent her a message. Now she didn't want to be on anyones side. She let out a little hic as a tear slid down her puffy cheek. Her lip quivered in an effort to keep from from bawling. It wasn't good right? She wasn't lucky if she was sad. Maybe she wasn't lucky at all. Maybe they lied. She wasn't special. Not like Charlie, and Remus, and Ed, or Felicity, Gunnar, Josh. She had no powers. She didn't belong.

How long she stayed like that, her clothes in her lap just staring at nothing, she didn't know. She didn't pay attention. Her little face oddly emotionless as a tear slipped out to run down her face every so often. She was unfocused, slouched over a bit. Everything about her was nothing like the Lyndis people saw, that people knew. Her chest was so heavy, so painful. Something burned in her throat. She could feel it all, the pain of it, but was strangely detached from it at the same time. He told her she was nothing to him, and that he didn't want her. He was her favorite, she loved him, she called him her brother and spent so much time with him, but it didn't work the other way. The person here she loved most didn't love her back.

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A Messenger boy's job was never done. Or at least after doing the same job for countless centuries, it was getting boring. But to some degree, Mercury loved his job. While the other gods were sitting on their bums twiddling their thumbs with their hands tied, mostly because Jupiter was a pain in the arse, he got to go down and mingle with the mortal folk. More importantly, he got to snub the rules more often than others, so he was more involved in his children's lives than other gods were. Well with the exception of Diana, but she had her little girl scout troop going on. And to be honest, what good was having an immortal girl scout troop without the amazing cookies? It was a fail troop. The cookies were the most awesome part. Mercury was a firm believer that all of the worlds problems would be solved if people would just sit down, talk it out and eat some sandwiches and cookies. But with people like Mars roaming around, that chance was less than zero. There was more of a likelihood for there to be another round of outright war than a nice and cozy sit down around the campfire.

But to a degree, Mercury found himself here at camp for some strange reason. Well there wasn't no reason at all, Mercury wanted to make sure his children were doing alright. Zidane had been through a lot, he wanted to do everything in his power to make sure that the boy was taking care of himself. So after dropping off a duffel bag of pilfered.... borrowed.... supplies and goodies in Zidane's trunk, Mercury dropped a few other things off. A couple of gifts for Lance, some video games and something for that adorable new girlfriend of his, and some things for Josh. No chocolate for Josh of course, the boy was allergic after all, not that it stopped him. There was a few things for Ethan, a few things that he might have needed, maybe not, but it was a rather eclectic bag of random and assorted things, some chocolate oranges and a stuffed octopus, maybe a few other things. But now it was time to visit one of his favorite little people in the world. He had a present for her, a basket of some exotic fruits that he thought she would enjoy and some sandwiches. Mostly because little growing girls needed to keep their energy up. There was a jump rope, some jacks, and a huge bag of marbles, things that little girls should be doing. Mercury was a big advocate for children being children, not roman soldiers. Mars would beg to differ.

Mercury was rarely surprised. But to see one of the worlds happiest people on earth depressed and sad was enough to take the bounce out of his step. His face scrunched up out of concern. Lyn was one of his favorite people here at camp. She was dear to his heart and absolutely was adorable. It was enough to shatter his heart to see her in such a state. "Now there Lass, you want to tell Uncle Mercury all about what's on your mind?" He said, getting down on his knees in front of her, putting his hands gently on her shoulders. He gently placed the goody bag for her on the floor, looking her square in the eyes. "Come on Lyn, tell me what's wrong. Or do i have to go get Gunnar to pry it out of you?" Mercury gave a small pout, looking at the small child in front of him.

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“You're nothing to me.”
“I don't want you”

Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something,
I'm giving up on you

Words: 491
Tag: Mercury <3

She was a bit startled, and for the more ADHD than average demigod it was kinda hard for anyone to get by without her notice. Well except when people hid, she wasn't good at hide and seek. Hearing his voice before she saw him, she looked up as his hands rested on her petite shoulders. Little lips trembled as she tightened them trying to not let more tears out. A sound almost like a hiccup came from her throat, tears burning and straining at her eyes making him more blurry. Mercury. He wasn't part of her little family group here in camp, though he could be. Josh and Ethan were like big brothers to her now. They were all so close on the quest, even if they argued sometimes. She thought they all cared at least. They watched each others backs for six months, and she loved each of them. She would have been ready to take a sword for any of them. But they didn't feel the same. Felicity stabbed her leg, Ed stabbed her heart. Despite her best efforts a large tear rolled down her cheek and he breathing was getting a little quicker, the little hiccup sound coming more readily from her throat.

“I-” talking hurt. It scared her. A bit of a crack went through her word, and a soft throb through her neck. What was wrong? Why did everything hurt so much? Her throat, her chest, her head, it all hurt. A deep throbbing pain that felt like it was trying to collapse her chest in on itself. Little fists came up to rub against the bone there, trying to rub away the pain. She looked down a moment, sniffling a bit, then pulled her lips back in trying to be a strong little Roman. “I love Ed.” that was it, the little tears that strained to be held back fell down her puffy red cheeks. She rubbed the tears away, her breathing coming out in little wheezing huffs. The fists that where trying to rub the pain away now tried to wipe away the tears.

“Ed's меня любить not, so 'kay. даже not хотел me, не все в порядке” she said in a rushed mix of English and Russian. “сказал он I'm небытие to him.” she told him that Ed not loving her was okay, but that he didn't even want her wasn't. Before she would have been okay, she would know that Ed wasn't a people person. Now it felt so bone chilling, he let her hug him, call him brother, and all while he didn't care. She was just a bother. She told Mercury she was nothing to him, that even he said it to her. If the god could make it out in all her blubbering, but if anyone could it was the god of language. “I want моего ба́тька” she said in the most childish of ways. I want my daddy.

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Mercury knew how cared for here at camp this little girl was. There were legionnaires here that would kill someone that hurt her. Hell there was one man here that she had wrapped around her finger that even gave Mercury a bad case of the willies. Mercury heard a little hiccup escape from her, it took all of his will power to not laugh. Hiccups were the one thing to make him giggle like a school girl. But that wasn't nice right now. Josh and Ethan both cared for this girl, and he did too. He cared about what his kids cared about. He pulled a handkerchief out of his pocket, passing the embroidered light blue cloth to the girl. "Now now lass dry your eyes. Let me see those beautiful eyes of yours." he gave her a genuine smile. He didn't like to see people cry. Especailly little girls, that was enough to make him want to go all mars like and go blow something up. If only it would make her smile, but she wasn't a child of mars, she wasn't into things like that. "I do have a present for you though." He produced the small package he was intending on giving her. "It might not make you smile, but It's for you."

Lyn's voice cracked, it seemed like her throat was dry. Mercury couldn't tell. He bent down and rummaged through his messanger bag, pulling out a bottle of orange juice, nice and cold. It was the perks of being a god. "Here, take something to drink. It will help." She tried to wipe her tears away. Little Lyn was trying to be strong, trying to be a "roman". Mercury couldn't help but shake his head. The emotional constipation in camp was astounding, even amongst his own kids. "Now now, it's okay to cry." Mercury said as he offered her a hand and a smile. He wasn't Mars, he wasn't an insensitive bastard. People, even Romans had emotions that they needed to acknowledge and act upon. "It seems to always hurt the worst when it's the people we love." He said, nodding his head when she stated that she loved Ed. Edmund Simmons was more insensitive than Mars himself. Mercury wanted to show the boy that there was more people here that cared for him. It didn't seem to work. Such a stubborn little fool. In Mercury's opinion, Little Lyn deserved someone better to call brother, not him. But it wasn't his place to say.

Then she started speaking fast, in a mixture of Russian and English. Mercury smiled. He couldn't help but be happy that it was him that found her and not someone else. To anyone else, it might just have sounded like gibberish, but the god of languages was easy to pick up on what she was saying. "Sometimes the people we love can be stubborn, They say taht they don't love us or that we aren't good enough for them. It hurts worse than any injury." Then she said something that tugged at his heart, it almost made him cry. It was something that he had never had to say, but he was lucky to always have his father there. He knew that this would have to happen sooner than later, but he wished that there would have been a chance for Little Lyn to recover from this shock of Edmund's steeley words first. "I'm sorry Lyn, I can't take you to your daddy. I wish I could more than anything in the world." Mercury paused for a moment before looking at Lyn once more. "I promised your daddy that he wouldn't have to worry about you being taken care of. You have me, and Gunnar, and Charlie, and Lilith and Tessa, even Remus, we are all here to take care of you. Your daddy is so very proud of you." He opened his arms, allowing her to hug him if she wanted to. "I had to take your daddy to the underworld. But he got to see you one last time before he had to go see the Judges. and he'll get to play with Cerbreus all day every day if he wants." The one part of his job that Mercury hated more than anything in the world, but sometimes he was just better suited for it than the others were. "I promise that you will be okay, Lyndis. Cross my heart and pinky swear"

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“You're nothing to me.”
“I don't want you”

Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something,
I'm giving up on you

Words: 560
Tag: Mercury <3

She took them, the things Mercury handed to her. Orange juice, a package, and before her a basket of fruit. Her hands distracted from wiping the tears from her face, but his warm hand brushed them away for her. It made her feel a bit better. She still felt crushed, but there was a person here. She didn't want to be alone, she hated being alone. How do you know you're real when there's no people? Right now though, she would have been okay with not being real. With none of this being real. Was it really okay to cry here? She never thought it was bad before, but people here said Romans don't cry. She gave him a little nod, her fluffy hair shook a bit with the movement. “Pasibki” she thanked him, it was a more slang cutie way instead of a traditional way and still she was a bit in the Russian mind set of things.

She knew Mercury couldn't take her to see her dad, that she wasn't supposed to leave. She didn't care right now, and wished Mercury didn't either, that he would take her to her family in Russia to see her dad. He apologized for not being able to and her head dropped back down to look at her feet, letting the tears fall she could kind of see. Then he started talking about him. Her father. How he had made a promise and Lyndis looked up at him a bit confused. Had he met her dad? Maybe because her family traveled so much, and especially her dad. He always ventured everywhere, even when he wasn't supposed to. Her daddy always told her how proud he was, she missed him. She wanted to hear him say it again, to ruffle her hair and call her silly names. Tell her how the hunt went well because she was with them, or how proud he was of her archery, her swordsmanship, everything she did. He was the type to use positive reinforcement than anything else, though she didn't know what that was or what that meant.

Something heavy dropped onto her chest, and Lyndis couldn't stand anymore. It pulled her to the ground and left her breathless. Her lip quivered as she breathed in through her mouth, a sharp intake of shaking air. This wasn't how it was supposed to be. She wanted to go back to her dream. The mist on the quest, it was a nice dream. Everyone was happy, she had Ed, Gunnar, Felicity, Remus, Josh, Ethan, Charlie, and they had their friends, and really everyone was there. Everyone was happy. Sure people die. She'd seen people die. She and everyone on the quest almost died multiple times. It was her daddy though. He couldn't be in the underworld. He couldn't be dead. She put her little hands over her eyes, fingers stretching back into her hair a little as it tumbled over her face as her tiny body was racked with sobbing. Small screams that she could force out of her dry throat came high pitched and difficult to her. Not ear shattering, but perhaps to the heart. She crept forward into his arms and cried softly there. She couldn't be mad at her dad, or at Ed, but they left her. The people she loved most left. Voluntarily or not.

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Oh how he hated doing the things he had to do. It would have been cruel to let her find out on her own that her father was gone. It was things like this that could make or break demi-gods. Mercury wished with the entirety of his being that he could have done something to prevent her father's demise. Or the demise of anyone, all people were loved. Even those that truly believed that no one wanted them or needed them, they were loved. At some point, they were daughters, sons, mothers, fathers, brothers and sisters. They were friends and family. Everyone had someone that cared. Mercury loved his father, his children, their mothers, even the campers here that no longer had parents. No matter what his father said, no matter what Mars said, All children, all people, were his children. They were travelers on the road of life and after all, he was the patron of travelers. Life and death were the greatest adventures in the world.

Her thanks wasn't necessary. Mercury loved to spoil his children and their friends. "Just know I'm always gonna look out for you." he said softly. He gently brushed a strand of her fluffy hair away from her face. Mercury had seen the pride in her father's face and it was the sort of pride that was wonderful. Not the egotistical sort of pride that his own father had at times or the kind that ran rampant around mars's neurons. It was the same pride he had in his own children. Nothing could be more amazing then the acomplishments that your children had while working hard to perfect their crafts and skills. He wanted to bend the rules so badly, but at times, there were rules that even he wouldn't break. Not wouldn't, there were times that even Mercury wanted to break the most logical of rules just for fun, couldn't. He didn't think that he could bear to see the look of sadness on her face to see the ghost of her father. It would be enough to make even the most hardened of veterans cry. The amount of physical and emotional pain that the children here were put through, it was harsh and cruel. No child deserved having their childhood taken from them just to train up as a soldier.

"Shhh shhh...." Mercury rocked Lyn back and forth while she seemed to sob in his arms. He felt as if his heart had simply shattered into a million pieces. he wanted to fix this so badly, he wanted to make sure she never ever cried again. IT was a promise that he could neither make nor enforce. "I know it hurts. You cry as much as you want till you feel better. Mercury will always be here for you." He was truly more here than some of the other gods. He knew he could be here faster than a lightening bolt from Jupiter's arse. "Just remember, the ones we love, they never really leave." Mercury said, trying to console the crying child. "you'll always have your daddy here," He prodded her forehead. "And here" he prodded her heart. "Your memories will keep him alive forever. Your stories you'll tell people, they will keep him alive."

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“You're nothing to me.”
“I don't want you”

Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something,
I'm giving up on you

Words: 502
Tag: Don't mind my tears

She felt warm and cold at the same time. Warm arms around her, but something felt cold in her throat, in her chest, her stomach. Sobbing into his chest as he rocked her back and forth. She stayed there, her body felt so weak and drained from crying. Sad was much more exhausting that being happy, being that hyper little girl that people gave energy drinks to to see if she'd combust or break the sound barrier. It didn't matter much though, not when you're crying. When you're emptying your soul into someone else's shirt.

"But he's not, he's not. No more hugs, and no more head ruffles. My daddy, mine..." normally she wasn't this possessive, normally she wouldn't be bawling her eyes out, normally there wouldn't be snot and tears dripping from her face. Normally a child didn't have to spend a year away from her dad just to be told he was gone when she really needed him. Normally a child didn't have to fight horrible monsters on a quest, or have marks in a spiral on her arm from burns. Normal children didn't have to go through all of this in only a few months. Lyndis wasn't a normal child. She was a demigod, and a legionnaire. "He was the best daddy, we'd go exploring. We'd break rules, and laugh. We'd do punishment together." still she spoke in a slur of Russian and English. Whatever words got her feelings across best, sometimes she'd smile. In that pained, it can't be real, kind of way. It was hard to believe when he was still so alive in her mind, just yesterday, just a few minutes ago he was fine in her mind. She couldn't just switch over, she couldn't just think he was dead now. It wasn't completely real to her. "I don't...feel like he's gone." she remembered someone only a little older than her dying in her family. They played together, and she cried hard and long over it. They grew up together, but she got to see him buried, and his body cold and unmoving was so different. She could swear it wasn't him, but it was.

She wanted her big brother Ed, and her dad, she wanted them and couldn't have either of them. "What did I do? What did I do?" she asked a bit frantic, searching Mercury's face for an answer. It was her fault wasn't it? Some how she pushed Ed away, some how it was her fault her dad was gone. She couldn't think he was dead, that word wouldn't associate in her mind. Just gone. Gone like Ed. Out of reach, but not dead. She couldn't say it, couldn't even think it. It was almost unexplainable, both things. Just thinking there must be something wrong with her, or that she messed up some how. That the idea of her dad being gone wasn't, it didn't seem real. The idea itself was sad, when her reality set in how would it feel then?

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