Post by Deleted on Jan 21, 2016 10:24:00 GMT -5
Only Got Just One Life
Felicity starred into the bottle, it was half full, or empty, however the heck your viewpoint saw fit to see it. Either way she was still drinking, it had been a bad habit she had picked up since she left the legion, again. She knew she had a flight risk habit but c'mon, who could blame her? Her apartment had gone all Mr. and Mrs Smith with the fight she had with Remus and well, things still hurt, too many memories and crap. She never should have let Discordia worm her way back into her brain but yet here she was, it was almost like deep down she wanted it to happen, and maybe she did. Maybe she was just as strange and delusional and well, deadly and Discordia saw that and just pushed for it. Actually, no maybe about it, that's exactly what happened. But it's not like Felicity didn't try to go back, she did , only to be faced with Remus again, and gods, did that hurt. Luckily it ended up with things smoothed over a bit but honestly, that chapter of her life was over. She didn't know the kind of person she was anymore. Sure, there was this one guy she was semi-normal around, but she wasn't sure how long that would last. How long before she ruined his life? Maybe it was best to get rid of him now before things got worst.
She took a swig of the rum and looked at the box in the alley in front of her. She was avoiding responsibilities again, the tasks Discordia left her to do, she had ditched in the middle of the night again while the new guy was sleeping. Night was usually when she did her bidding anyway, more powerful then due to the shadows. But anyways, back to the box, it sat there, helpless, holding all the memories of a former life. Remus told her to keep it, put it somewhere safe. But if she did that, would she really be able to move on? No, she needed to do this. She stepped forward and emptied the contents of the rum bottle onto the cardboard shoe box with obvious signs of wear. Then, she pulled out a lighter, yes she had gone to carry around a lighter, she was prone to bumming random strangers for a spare cigarettee too, anything to help the memories go away. She picked up one of the pieces of paper that didn't drown in the alcohol, she didn't even need to open up the worn folding to know it was the first Valentine she had gotten from him. With a deep breath she light it on fire and dropped it onto the shoebox the rest igniting in flames.
She stared at it for a moment, letting everything burn away when the faces started coming back up again. All the face, not from memories in the box, but from what she had been doing with Discrodia, gods what a waste of that rum, she needed it to hide the faces and the screams, she needed it to be able to function. So she stumbled out of the alleyway, not looking at the box that was becoming ash, that was a different life, a different Felicity. Right now, her entire life was open for a rewriting.
She took a swig of the rum and looked at the box in the alley in front of her. She was avoiding responsibilities again, the tasks Discordia left her to do, she had ditched in the middle of the night again while the new guy was sleeping. Night was usually when she did her bidding anyway, more powerful then due to the shadows. But anyways, back to the box, it sat there, helpless, holding all the memories of a former life. Remus told her to keep it, put it somewhere safe. But if she did that, would she really be able to move on? No, she needed to do this. She stepped forward and emptied the contents of the rum bottle onto the cardboard shoe box with obvious signs of wear. Then, she pulled out a lighter, yes she had gone to carry around a lighter, she was prone to bumming random strangers for a spare cigarettee too, anything to help the memories go away. She picked up one of the pieces of paper that didn't drown in the alcohol, she didn't even need to open up the worn folding to know it was the first Valentine she had gotten from him. With a deep breath she light it on fire and dropped it onto the shoebox the rest igniting in flames.
She stared at it for a moment, letting everything burn away when the faces started coming back up again. All the face, not from memories in the box, but from what she had been doing with Discrodia, gods what a waste of that rum, she needed it to hide the faces and the screams, she needed it to be able to function. So she stumbled out of the alleyway, not looking at the box that was becoming ash, that was a different life, a different Felicity. Right now, her entire life was open for a rewriting.
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By: Jackie
By: Jackie